Love and light to you all. I know I’ve been away a while, and I feel slight guilt for not posting what I’ve been up to but today is one of those days where I felt called to start writing again! I thought I’d give you a quick run down of what I’ve been up to, and then tell you about my amazing day meeting the horses at Soar Valley Western Stables visiting an organisation called Horses for Causes that does Equine Therapy with children with Autism and adults with Mental Health illness.
I know many of you that read my blog work with vulnerable people and I am really keen to support the Horses for Causes project. One of the reasons I wanted to share the experience with you was simply to help people to understand healing power in a different way. I’m always banging on about Reiki and all that stuff, and I’m open to alternative therapies. I think this is one of those experiences that you have to go and have yourself. I know this therapy would be amazing for a number of different people. I wanted to share it for those of you who are going through any kind of healing crisis. I know its cheeky, but if you work with people that would benefit, and this is something you could support with funding, please get in touch with the project. They need all the support to continue doing the great work that they do.
This is their website http://www.soarvalleywestern.co.uk/ so if you can help with funding, volunteering or in any other way, please contact either myself or the project directly.
So…I’ve been working really hard at my day job and I’m loving it! I’ve also been doing a lot of work with people around mindfulness. I’ve been busy spreading the Reiki message and getting prepared for my Reiki Master in December. I’ve been throughly enjoying the “deep” conversations that I’ve been having and meeting so many like minded souls. I am looking forward to teaching Reiki, medidation and life support workshops. My days are long, and happy!! I’m learning how to balance work, life and being a healer and its a steep learning curve. My mission is to try and be “crystal clear” as well my mission finally being crystal clear…but more on this in future posts!
Today has been an amazing experience. Through work, I got to go out and see the Horses for Causes project and I wanted to share my experience with you because it highlights the power of Reiki, self development and the possibilities in terms of how much power you have to change your own life.
Those of you that know me, know that I’ve been on a bit of a roller coaster ride and I guess I wanted to write this to demonstrate how much it has changed me. When I say change though, I don’t think the essence of me has changed at all. I think I’ve lost the fear of actually being the real me. I’ve come closer to the truth of who I am and I’m happy to just “be” that. People used to think of me as an angry person, defensive and surrounded by barriers. Crunchy on the outside, but those that took time to know me always knew I was soft on the inside! I think many people have this fear of being who they really are. Its partly fear of being vulnerable, or being rejected or just simply not fitting in. For me, it was all of those things. I’ve had to go on a painful journey to find myself, but it was well worth it. I like that people want some of what I’ve had! Not only is it a change in appearance, its nice that people notice the positivity and love that is flowing from me. For once in my life, I am not afraid of being the loving, giving and kind person that I am. I matter more than someone’s opinion of me. I love being me and I’m really embracing that and making the most of every single minute. My beautiful sister in law would be so proud if she was here to see me. She saw my light, and I know she’s smiling down from the heavens as she watches me bouncing along! Love you Mariam and miss you always!
So anyway, I’ve gone off on a tangent! I get to the stables to be greeted by a beautiful dog. Those of you that know me know how I am around dogs! I was greeted with love, and thats all that mattered and I noted this in my response. I stroked the dog and made a good friend there! Sharon told me all about the project, and she was lovely. She asked if I’d like to see the horses and I agreed without any hesitation. Those of you that know me will be thinking, hmm wonder how this will go…?!
Sharon kindly lent me her wellies as it was a really muddy field. I walked out in to the field and could see this beautiful brown horse heading straight towards me, like he’d recognised me and was coming over to find out why I’d not been in touch. Now at this point, the old me would’ve gone “that’s enough of that…I’m scared…goodbye!” but again, I felt an overwhelming rush of pure love and welcomed the horse to me. He rested his head across my chest and I stroked him. As I did this, I felt myself come out of my body and watching myself made me laugh. It was at that point, I realised the transition that I am making and how much of my conditioned fear response I have lost.
The way Equine Therapy works is you are with the horses and this is therapeutic in itself. Questions and self reflection is prompted through the way the horses react and behave towards you and towards each other. In that first moment, I learnt just how much love I have to give, and that I am not afraid of giving it. If this beautiful sensitive creature noticed that in me, I am glad I am starting to notice this in myself. The interaction with the horse was amazing. They are loving and sensitive creatures, powerful, graceful and healing.
Reflecting on the experience, I have found a profound respect for animals. They have a relationship with the Divine that we may never understand but like any other living thing, imagine just “being” without any judgement or struggle or resistance to life. That is what prayer and meditation does for us and we are fortunate to get glimpses, moments of enlightenment. Animals, trees, nature – they spend their entire existence in this profound state of enlightenment and simply being. As such, I believe that they are profoundly pious beings and this is why they have the power to change people’s lives. I was deeply touched by my experience. I felt love and loved, all without words and without judgement.
I said to Sharon, “I’ve never felt so happy in all my life!” which may have sounded like exaggeration but I can honestly say it was the truth. In that moment, surrounded by love…wow! I felt peace and I was touched deeply.
I’ll leave it there for now, but please leave comments or contact me directly for further information.